This last weekend, we spend our Sunday Funday with cameras in hand, walking around downtown Portland and the Pearl District.
It doesn’t matter how it turns out. You pass when you show up and do the work. And that’s better than standing still, feeling stuck, and getting nowhere.
It was finally time to suck it up and choose a few instances where it made sense to pay for convenience. And not just because I wanted more time for the sake of having more time, but because I put some real value on the things I was ignoring (creative projects, health, a clean home space), and decided that, you know what? Someone can bring me my groceries for an extra $10 if it means I get to spend that hour doing something else that moves my life and goals forward.
“While I couldn’t undo things, I could commit to doing better with each new day than I had done the day before. And then re-commit to that again, every day, over and over. Sometimes that’s incremental, but it’s forward movement. And that’s what counts, and these days I’m doing way more that I’m proud of than I’m not, so I’m calling that a win.”
I’ll never have a greater opportunity than I do right now to dance on the mountains, do yoga on the beaches, make out with bearded mandolin players, go back to school, change the world, open an art gallery, record a K-pop album, stalk a celebrity, write a poem, eat a marshmallow, build an empire, go down in flames, or chase any other whim that strikes me. And despite that, here I am just hanging out with ‘normal.’
At the end of last year, I completely quit my life. Nearly four months have passed since I hit what was definitely my own personal rock bottom, and while I realize that it’s easy to tie things up in a bow like this, to start a story at the end with conclusions and spoilers, that’s where I am. So that’s where I’m starting.
They say that once you take the risk, you discover the reward. That it all works out in the end. That you’ll be glad you did it. And you know what? We all know that they’re right.
That’s the easy part.
But, what about the part they don’t tell you?